Blessing's come down...

Well since my last blog update, I have gotten a job, well actually kinda two, and I have seen my son. I got the job at the Anchorage Cafe at Mercy Ships! I started on Valentine's Day and love it. I absolutely love the environment and the wonderful people there that I work with. I work part-time and and off on Sunday's. 

This past week has been crazy!! I got to see Zane on Wednesday!!! It was really good, not as emotionally hard as I thought it would have been. But it was hard to get to that point. Monday, Satan really tried pulling me down. And I almost decided for good that I did not want to go through with the meeting, but Mama Brown told me I needed to really think about it because she knew I would regret it if I did not atleast try. So I went up to my room that morning and just prayed and cried out to the Lord. I felt something tell me to look into my King James Version of the Bible and there was a old post card from a few weeks before I was to deliver from Mama Brown. It said they were here for me to walk through this adoption journey with me. There was also a verse on there to look up. Psalm 118:4-9. I read it and laughed out loud because it was totally the Lord, then I read my daily devotional and it talked about taking chances, and not just taking the safe option...That gave me even more confirmation that I was to see my son! I was happy and excited from then on to see him! 

The time finally came on Wednesday, and I was walking over to the office, and I just broke down before I got to the door. I was really happening, I was seeing Zane again, and so soon. I knew it was all the Lord's doing because not everyone gets the chance to do an adoption like mine. I never will ever take this for granted and will always understand the true meaning of a family through Logan and Kurt and my son.
This past week also, Ed Sinke has been teaching on the Father Heart of God, I knew from the sounds of it that I was probably going to have a hard time about this topic because my grandfather and grandma adopted me when I was a baby, but he died when I was young so I never grew up with a real father. But after learning the role of a father, and the role of God the Father, I teared up because I was so happy for Zane. He has a strong Christian father in his life who will always treat him nice, and teach him the things a young man should be taught. He is so blessed. I am just rejoicing in that.

Things are starting to look up now with my job, and everything. I am so blessed and thankful for everyone in my life, and everything God's doing and giving me!! Thank you guys for reading this! :) :) :) 

jordan