A Fresh Start!

     Well the new year really started off on a good foot. I had my baby as planned only 2 days over due, and still placed him on December 31, 2011 without the birth father's signature of relinquishment of rights. I did that with faith in God, and by knowing that I was to still place him that day.
     Today Zane is 2 weeks old, and I still miss him more than ever, but the Lord comforts those feelings by reminding me every second of the day that I did the right thing for him. God has wrapped His arms around me and has a hard grip on my life. I am no longer dwelling on the past but on the things of the future, and listening to God's still voice. 
     My time here at Fatherheart is very sacred to me, because I hope to help some girl who comes to this home. Some girl who is where I've been, and show her that it can work out, but only with God. I am very blessed to have had someone like that in my stay as a pregnant girl here at Fatherheart, and her name is Alex. I know that the Lord placed her into my life to show me that ashes CAN be made into beauty. I have the up most respect for her and the way she handles her self and her life, because I now know that parenting is hard as well as placing your child. 
     The Lord has truly blessed me in these past 7 months while being here at Fatherheart. I am 8 months clean and sober today and I can say that with a big smile on my face, and the confidence that it will stay like that forever! :)


I truly understand the meaning of Ashes into Beauty.....


jordan