Well tomorrow is officially my 22nd Birthday! It's crazy to think that I've been on this earth for 22 years! Especially since they've gone by super fast! As I sit here and look back at this past year, I hope to have a better birthday than last!!! I know that the Lord has very good things in store for me this year! :)
This past weekend has been great! We have a new volunteer at the house, her name is Hailey. She's pretty awesome and she's from Canada. I hope that our time together is great and that we can both grow with the Lord here at Fatherheart. She, Alex and another friend named Stacy and Aaron all went out on Friday night to Olive Garden, and got a movie to watch. Then Saturday, which marked 3 weeks since I placed Zane, we three girls went to the mall, out to eat and just shopping. It was really fun, and got my mind off of thinking, "Oh, well three weeks ago, at this time, I was placing Zane with Logan and Kurt." These girls were such a blessing to me! Then this morning we went to church and I just was so excited to be in church. I just love worshipping the Lord, and just being in His presence!
Their was a baby dedication this morning, and it was kinda hard to watch it. Not just because it was a sweet baby, but it was a baby boy. I just remembered when Christian Punches dedicated my Son to the Lord, and it was kinda a bittersweet moment watching this baby being prayed over and everything. It was cool though because little Asa's (the baby from church) parents have the same intention for their child as mine. They want their son to grow strong in the Lord, and do His will. That's what I want for my son as well. It was very encouraging though to watch this little baby actually look like he was listening to his father pray over him.
I really felt the Lord speaking to me about my time with Him as well. I don't put Him first before somethings sometimes, and I'm really trying to work on that. My quiet times in the morning are now only devoted to Him, and before I go to bed at night, it will end with a sweet prayer to my Father, and a journal entry. I really have been asking the Lord to just keep my path's straight, because I know that I'm not a good decision maker, but I'm also working on that aspect of my life as well. I have also asked the Lord to work in my heart for forgiveness. I feel as though there are a few things from the past and present that I am still having a hard time getting through, and I cannot grow more in the Lord with these few road blocks. But I know that with prayer and supplication, they will work out! :)
After church, Alex took me out for a suprise birthday lunch at Chuy's in Tyler. Then we went and got some Orange Leaf! :) I really felt loved today by her wanting to treat me. I'm not used to that. I really thank her for being my friend. A friend who is there to point it out to me when I'm struggling! :)
But in the car on the way there, I was telling Alex and Hailey how I feel ashamed at myself for not having courage to pray out loud around people....I mean I LOVE MY LORD and I want to do His will, but it is just really hard for me to pray. It's always been a struggle, and I told them how I really asked the Lord during the Alter Call at church to help me change this so I can pray over anyone I come across, no matter where at in life, at that moment. What really is amazing to me, is that tonight at Family Night, when it was Prayer Shield time, I PRAYED WITH ALEX AND HAILEY! I felt so amazing and proud of myself, for not letting Satan come and tell me to not do it! Usually I just let Alex pray, but I actually got the courage up to pray! Thank you Lord for working in me and showing me quickly how fast you are working!
Tomorrow is my Birthday and a start of a new week. I got an update on Zane, and he's growing, growing, growing...I can't believe that on Tuesday he'll be 4 weeks old.. My how time flys by when the Lord's in control! :) Good Night!!!!
jordan
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