Ok, so I know that it's been almost a month since I wrote a blog. And believe it or not, not a whole lot has changed!! :)
I am working everyday of the week Monday thru Friday, mornings ranging from 6:30 am to 1 pm and 11:30 am to 4 pm. It's been quite the adventure working at the Anchorage meeting new people, and getting to share my testimony and learning other peoples! I really enjoy working there, and my manager, Kathy has really been a blessing to me, especially advice wise, and helping me work through things!!! Alex, now works with me there, and it has been fun getting to see people try and figure out who's who! :) :) :)
Well, I just finished reading a book by Joyce Meyer, it's about worrying, and that's a problem that I have!! HEHE.. But in the book she talks about giving everything to God, no matter what it is, because we aren't here to "fix" things on our own, or by ourselves. The Lord says He wants to do that..."Cast all your cares upon him, for he careth for you..."
I have an issue about this!!! I always am worrying, about making people upset with me, or hurting other people accidentally, about Ethan, and about my life...but rather than worrying I just simply have to LET GO AND LET GOD!!!!!!! Duhhh, Jordan! Life would be SO MUCH EASIER!!! That's what I heard the Lord tell me when I was reading this book! :) It truly was the Lord that led me to this book, because at the moment I started reading it, I was worrying extremely too much!!! :) And now I must say that my load is a little lighter!!
Although, there is times when I start to worry, but then I step back and say to my self, Jordan, Give it to God!!!
I saw Ethan last weekend! Boy that baby isn't much of a baby anymore!! He's starting to crawl more and sitting up on his own! :*( He's grown so much since the last time in April I saw him!!!! I truly felt from the Lord that this was His timing to see Ethan and Logan and Kurt! The whole time they were over here at my house, I didn't cry!!! Yes it was emotional for me, but the tears were none! Because I think that I'm finally getting to the stage that it's okay to see him and everything isn't awkward or emotional. I still haven't cried but REJOICED for seeing him!! I can't believe that even today, he's 8 months old. Where did all the time gooo!!!!!
Tomorrow is probably going to be an emotional day for me though...but I'm going to try my best to stand firm and strong. It's been 2 years without my Nanny by my side, and I can't believe I haven't gave up!!! I really honestly didn't think that life would ever be without you, but I know that someday we'll be reunited with each other and Praise the Lord when that will be!!! I loved my Nanny so much! She gave me so much in my life, and I know that I was a very hard/spoiled child and young adult, but the little things that she did teach me, will go on forever with me!!!!
Just continue to pray about my next steps in life...that the Lord will reveal them in His timing!!!
Thanks for your continued support and love and prayers!!! Love you guys!
xoxo
jordan
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