So, Christmas was well, interesting, it snowed and that was very fun to have on Christmas day, and I did get a few things that I love!!! I had the opportunity to house sit over the holiday, and watched a boxer, which was also very interesting! But enjoyable in the least!!!
I did not get to see Ethan for Christmas, as was my "expectation", which I learned that it is all in the Lord's timing! Not mine! I should not "expect" Logan and Kurt to bring me Ethan whenever I think it's right. Hello!!! They have their own life!! And it's such an honor to even get to see him when I do, and all the pictures I get and videos and even just random texts I get! I am so blessed beyond measure with The Hurst's and Ethan! But to my surprise, Ethan and Logan were coming into town the day after my birthday, two weeks ago...and I GOT TO VISIT HIM!!! :) They came up on Friday, the 25th to my work, so I could be a happy mommy and show off my sweet boy!! Everyone has heard so much about him, but I was so excited to show him off!! And Logan of course! :) Then, after that very short, quick visit on Friday, I had a nice long visit on Sunday afternoon, which led into Family Night, and then a few mins afterwards...It was just so sweet to see Ethan recognize me, even if he was just a happy little boy, I will still believe it's because he knows it's "Me, Mommy Jordan". This time it was extra hard for me to say goodbye, he has such a personality, and is bubbly, and so cute. But what was hard was not knowing when I would see him again...but I have leaned on the Lord for His timing again...even though it will be difficult to submit at first to His timing, I will see the reasoning! Just like I do every other time!! A few days after they left, Ethan started walking and I got a video of it, and just started crying.. I couldn't believe it! Seeing that video just made my heart ache for him to be with me. But, I went back and read my journals from my pregnancy, and looked at the pictures I've gotten so far, and saw how happy Ethan is and how happy Logan and Kurt are..my mind just kept replaying the adoption ceremony, and how much of a blessing I have become to Logan and Kurt's whole family..Seeing Ethan is both a blessing and a struggle, and I am thankful for friends who are sensitive to these feelings that I express! It's always hard for about a week after he's gone back home. But then in between visits, it's always nice to receive pictures and videos!!!
I would say that this past birthday on the 23rd, until Ethan left was the best birthday week I've ever had!
And I even got a surprise birthday party, that I've ALWAYS wanted! Thrown by my friend, Alex!! It was quite the night!! :)I have truly learned how much I am loved by my Living Alternatives Family again!!!
Now I just want to share a little of my heart, and where I am right now...
At the beginning of the year, I got a new job with Mercy Ships, in the Information Services Department. I have an awesome boss, and I work with GREAT people!!! I am truly grateful for the door that the Lord has opened up for me here at Mercy Ships. I have been praying for a full-time job, and it's in a wonderful department. I have always had an interest in the computer field, but never have pursued it. Since I have been here at Mercy Ships, I have always had a heart for the ship, and wanted to go out onto the ship, just like everyone else!!! But the Lord has given me such a passion for the missions aspect since being here full time, and actually working closely with the Information Services Department, here at the IOC and the Africa Mercy. The Lord was so clear in telling me and showing me that I was going to the ship, to serve with the Information Services Department there. And in confirmation, he has allowed me to go back to school, to earn a degree in computers, and I just got my acceptance letter to Tyler Junior College, after waiting and waiting to "hear from the Lord". Its so crazy! Also, just a bunch of little things in my life are lining up again, and doors are opening...Here am I Lord, SEND ME!!! :)
I have recently, like yesterday, found my birth father online, in prison. He's due for parole in September, which is crazy, because I've always wanted to know about him. Not necessarily him, but things I can pass onto Logan, Kurt and Ethan. About family health issues, or traits that both me and Ethan may pick up. Also, it's just interesting to me to find him now, after 23 years of not knowing him. I have prayed too, and have wanted to find him, but never have known how to. I do know that some people may not agree to this decision, but I think that I will never know if I don't try and find out. It's not like I want to go visit him in Huntsville, but I would like to write him, if that's the Lords will. I am very cautious about anything right now, I am just thankful that there may be a way to connect with him. I mean who knows what this man has been through, maybe he has struggled with some of the similar things I have in the past. Maybe he's a Christian, and is a follower of Jesus. All these maybe's but the only way it'll ever be a yes he is or a no he isn't, is to step out of my comfort zone, and ask!
The Lord is working to restore the relationship between me and my mother as well, which is such a blessing and prayer answered...there are boundaries set up, and we each have respect for each other's feelings and have both communicated each others feelings from the past. I am thankful to work on out relationship, and see what happens. Some people don't understand my reasoning with things, but I don't think that these things need reasons, when the Lords involved...
I have almost one of my debts paid off that's hanging over my head, and I see that as a BIG accomplishment. It's not holding me back, but still have probation payments to be taken care of, and I have a feeling that by next summer, I will be paid off with that. I am working really hard, and am on top of my things...
Thank you to everyone who follows my story, and pray's for me for whatever I may need prayer for...
Please continue to pray for me and Ethan, along with Logan and Kurt.
jordan
xoxo
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